A couple of weeks ago I realized I hadn’t been wondering anything theological or scriptural of late. Neither asking questions nor seeking clarification. And, of course, I considered why ever not since my mind is naturally an inquisitive one that fairly craves information. Well, I thought for a bit and concluded that, as in Psalm 46:10, I was being still and trying to know that He is God. Key word: TRYING.
I like to THINK that I was waiting on the Lord (Isaiah 40:31). It sounds good and holy, after all, doesn’t it?
You see, God and I are working together on something rather particular right now. God is working to instill peace in my heart while I am working to welcome it. Something has concerned me for nearly two years, and it is my earnest desire to let go of it. It may be called idolatry. No. Not MAY be. It MUST be. It IS.
Oh, Lord have mercy upon me and my soul.
I just had an epiphany while composing this post.
The Lord works in mysterious ways.
One of the commandments God handed down at Mount Sinai was “Thou shalt have no other gods before me” (Exodus 20:3). Jesus Christ explained to a Pharisee (a young lawyer) that we are to love the Lord our God with all our heart, soul, and mind (Matthew 22:37). Paul taught us to flee from idol worship (1 Corinthians 10:14).
Sometimes that’s easier said than done. Especially when we are polluted with such stubbornness that we don’t even realize our idols for what they are.
Last night at Tuesday night book study, Pastor Bob mentioned idolatry, and do you know what? I piously sat there thinking Oh, not I. Oh, HEAVENS, no. I do not worship idols (emphasis on the I).
Oh, forgive me, Lord. Forgive me. Because I clearly DO worship idols.
I’m thinking that being still and knowing that He is God is an IMPORTANT pastime. I’m thinking that waiting upon the Lord WILL renew my strength. I’m also thinking that peace (as described in Horatio Spafford’s well-known lyrics below) will INDEED attend my way like a river.
“When peace like a river attendeth my way,
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot, He has taught me to say,
‘It is well, it is well with my soul.’”
It would seem that I need to devote a bit more time and energy on this peace endeavor. That I need to remove myself from my idols. That I need to worship the Lord my God and serve Him only (Luke 4:8).
Oh, God, help me. Help me to be still and know that You are God. Help me to fix my eyes upon Your Son (Hebrews 12:1-3). And forgive me for putting gods before You. Please.
Kimberly S. Lancaster
May 31, 2017
May 31, 2017